December 26, 2012

this boy


is loved so much.

The story? I was jumping up and down to take a timed picture of the family and The Nephew thought I was cool [I am.] and wanted to be like auntie amy. Then he did the hand-raised thing. I think he may be more of an extrovert than I am, but I'm hopeful for his future on stage. (-:

December 23, 2012

a walk on the beach

Me, Mumford & Sons, and a beach. This, my friends, is the life. 
I wore my shorts, but it was definitely in the 40s. 
Things I saw: 2 Amish girls running in their dresses; a family in coats, hats, and scarves; guys in shorts without shirts; dead fish; a girl in her bikini swimming; and an older woman in head to toe neon. I love people. 

In other news, it's been 3 days since I last bathed, I think I'll remedy that tonight. People are going to have a hard time loving me soon if I don't. (-:

All photos taken with my iPhone because I'm too lazy to get out my big girl camera. 

December 17, 2012


I'm hoping to share an entire post of Christmas music with you before Christmas, but one of my new favorite albums is an EP by Pentatonix [winners of The Sing-Off] called PTXmas. LOVE.

Carrie, Kate, and I walked around the other night to look at lights. The following is the wordless version of what we saw.
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Love you people.


This year Michelle's annual Friendsgiving was December 1st. So, if I'm posting pictures only 15 days late and not over 30 [just wait, I still have birthday pictures to show you!] I feel that I'm accomplishing some sort of goal.

Thank you.

This is Michelle, she's our hostess. She's holding a turkey neck in this picture.
turkey! #fgchicago2012 the feast #fgchicago2012

This is Rachel. She put together the relish tray in case people were hungry while the turkey was cooking. She also found this geode at her parent's house that looked yonic [that means it was deemed a "vageode"]
@thelastrachelonearth put together the relish trays for #fgchicago2012 @thelastrachelonearth found a vageode (vagina geode in case you were confused). #fgchicago2012

This is me. Carving a turkey. I'm kind of the official turkey carver. Did you know that I'm a vegetarian? Is this irony?
Amy cuts the bird. #fgchicago2012

This is Emily. She's my friend from forever. She recently moved to Illinois and come over so I could hug her face and it made me crazy happy. We were both really excited to eat this dessert and then it tasted like this:
You should know that this is her second bite because I requested an example of how we felt eating the first bite so I could photo-document. Emily took one for the team. 
IMG_5283.JPG flexy man #fgchicago2012
Yeah. We needed coffee to wash that out of our mouths, so mid-party we took a little walk over to Starbucks. You know, because that's normal. (-:

CAMEL DOWN! I drank out of plastic cups with my name written in permanent marker on the side, but assisted this person in accumulating as much glass decor as possible. These make it easy to identify your beverage, but they seem to impair the whole drinking process. I'm a good friend.
camel down! #fgchicago2012

Sarah. The former college roommate. She's engaged. What a grown-up.
Sarah found her new favorite! #figpreserves #fgchicago2012


BRUNCH! [because, obviously, we needed more food]
@jengaqueen @mskeim #fgchicago2012 melty. #fgchicago2012
IMG_5283.JPG coffee, I heart you.
During the party a question was asked:
Question: Why are my chocolate cookies always flat?
Carrie: Your butter is probably too soft.
Man: It could be many things.
Carrie: Yeah, but I'm pretty sure it's because her butter is too soft.
Man: I hate to pull rank, but I'm a pastry chef.

Then, everything we did had a "I hate to pull rank..." joke attached.
I don't mean to pull rank, but I invented spoons on noses. #fgchicago2012
I hate to pull rank, but I invented spoons on noses.
hot chocolate! @mskeim #fgchicago2012
I hate to pull rank, but I have a degree in swirling whipped cream on hot chocolate.
glasses! @amaleigh81 #fgchicago2012
I hate to pull rank, but I created cat-eye glasses.

This photo is by the amazing Meagan and it's my fave from the whole weekend!

love these people.
love you people.

December 16, 2012

oh, my heart

It has been sad.

Sad to leave Fort Wayne. Sad to leave my job, my friends, my family. Sad to leave Hank. Sad to pack up my adorable little apartment. Sad for the relationships that are just beginning without time to grow.

Happy to pursue my calling. Happy to be near old friends. Happy to have family to live with. Happy to be able to be in school.

The happy and the sad are fighting and I don't much care for the tug from both directions. My emotional balance is off...all.the.time.

Therefore, I feel manic and depressed hour by hour without being diagnosably either. A hot mess if you'd like my personal self-diagnosis. If they've got Hot Mess in the DSM-V, let me know.

Hot Mess Amy is being her hot mess self, then on Friday there was a school shooting in Connecticut. My heart plummeted. I physically ache for this community.

I hate it.

I hate violence. I hate that children died. I hate that teachers died. I hate that other children, teachers, and school personnel had to bear witness. I hate that for some reason this young man was in a state where evil and darkness took over his mind. I hate that people live in fear.

I hate that it makes me question and doubt and question where God is in it.

My heart was not made to hate.

I started seeing this quote around facebook and it reminded me.

Go see the free printable available at

Love can outshine the hate. Love is what makes teachers choose to go to their classroom and care about their children. Love is what makes strangers give their time and talent to help. Love is what will heal our wounds. Love is where we can seek peace when nothing else seems possible. Love will remind us that we aren't alone. Love will trudge beside us when we can barely lift our feet.

We sang Love Came Down at Christmas this morning at church. I couldn't sing it. It's so true and painful. Painful in how hard it can be to see love in this. We're in a holiday season where Love is Coming Down. A yearly holiday when I'm reminded that Christ is born, Christ is Love, Christ is my past, present, and future.

My reminder that Love will win.
Love always wins.

love you people.

December 3, 2012

Dear Northern Indiana,

I like seasons.
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I want snow.

If I'm going to live in extended fall, I'm going to at least need the leaves to be pretty on the trees. [And, just to be clear, I don't actually want to live in extended autumn.]

It's December and it was over 60 degrees today. Boo, weather, BOOO! I'm ready to wear my winter clothes and my boots and my coat and my scarves and my hat and get all snuggly.

Plus, this is soup season, but I am experiencing difficulty with my desire to eat warm, uh....soupy meals.

Let's make it happen. Can I get 6-10 inches next week?